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February 23, 2006
My head Hangs in Shame, O Messenger

by Nadia Khan

My head hangs in shame! O Messenger,
You entrusted me with spreading the Message,
For lighting the "Qandeel" in every passage,
So the less fortunate will take the heed,
And those who are lost may follow the lead.

You handed me the Quran and the Sunnah
With complete faith, that I shall protect the khazeena
With hope and pride, you looked at your ummah
Before you parted away, with peace and Sakeenah

All your sacrifices were not in vain,
You erected a building, worth the pain
And to me, with faith, you gave the keys
That I will defend your Faith until the Eternity

And today, just 1500 years later,
I am buried under inexorable shame,
I sit helpless, watching the ridicule of your sanctity
I watch in disbelief, as the graves of your sons are breached.

I do not have the keys anymore
I do not have the strength no more
I cannot even defend my own faith
How could I have fortified your Bait.

I let go of the golden rope,
And started downhill on a steep slope,
I started disputing with my own brother
I started questioning the Deen and the Qadar

I came to a foreign land
But I did not turn it into your Madina
I started emulating those who are lost
And hence, lost my life and my Karina

I lie buried under tons of disgrace,
I cannot get up without your Grace,
O messenger, Please help my steps retrace
And start anew, keeping my pace with your pace

I have made mistakes as I am a human,
Grave they are, but I have learned acumen
I will believe in Allah and hold on to your Da'aman
Please O messenger, pray for my guidance.

Please O messenger, do not give up hope
I will tread on the Right path no matter how steep the slope.
I will make you gleeful on the day of the Judgement
I will make you proud with my commitment.

My head hangs in shame, O messenger
But I will never let you be ashamed in front of your Creator
I will give you pride and will prove to you
That your ummah befits you and belongs to you!

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Nadia said

Assalam u alaikum,
Let us send as much durood on our Beloved Prophet ( Sallullaho Alehi wassalam) as much as we can and let us all join in the voice of the Muslim for defending our Islam.
Jazakallah khair

on February 23, 2006 10:37 AM
gillette said

Could you translate the non-English words?

on February 23, 2006 1:55 PM
asef said


Jazakum Allah Khairan for this!

I renew my committment today, insha'Allah wa Bi-idnillahi, that I will work to be among the ummamti of RasulAllah (sal-lal-la-hu-wa-sal-lam) in this country (or any other place)...as long as I live...Ameen

Allahumm Salley Aalah Muhammadd wa barik Wa sallim!


on February 23, 2006 1:57 PM
asef said

Assalaatu Was Salaama Alaiyka

....Ya RasulAllah!

..Ya NabiAllah!

..Ya HabibAllah!

Allahumma Salley Aalah Sayedina Nabiyenah Muhammad Wa Barik Wa Sallim!

on February 23, 2006 2:04 PM
Nadia said

khazeena = treasure
sakeena = Arabic, satisfaction, sukoon ( peace) of the qalb
Bait = Arabic, the promise, or the oath
Karina = code of life
Da'man= link? i really can't explain it. The connection, the tie.

on February 23, 2006 8:12 PM
Nadia said

Jazakallah khair Br. Asef.

on February 23, 2006 8:14 PM
Justoju said

Beautiful poem mashaAllah...I missed your poems Nadia :) .

I always thought daaman was one's lap or the bottom of one's kamiz.

For some reason this poem made me think of that touching naat by Junaid Jamshed "Ilahi Teray chaukath par bekhari ban kay aaya hoo"

You can hear it here: http://www.nazmay.com/hamd_naat/junaid/

The lyrics are bbeeeaaauuutiifful...My husband found the naat somewhere and fell in love with it without even understanding most of the words. He asked me to translate and I just cried when I heard it the first time. If you dont understand some of the urdu, ask some one for translation...its sooo worth it...

on February 24, 2006 9:40 AM
Nadia said

Assalam u alaikum Sr. Justoju,
Jazakallah khair for your nice comments. You are right about the daaman, but I wanted to give the figurative translation.
I know!! I had been listening to Junaid Jamshed a lot a few months before, I don't think I have heard this particular one but I have heard others, and I love them.
Actually, that reminds me of writing a long due article, hopefully I can write that.
I hope things are well with you inshallah.

on February 24, 2006 11:24 AM
Nadia said

Salaam sr. Justoju,
I heard the naat you mentioned. It was indeed very beautiful and heart-wrenching. *sigh*, am still sad :(
Jazakallah khair :)

on February 24, 2006 5:41 PM
asef said


Sister Justoju, the Junaid Jamshed link you gave us, brought back memories...

It wasn't obvious to me from the first Hamd, but in the second hamd/naat I heard the Sheikh admonishing Junaid Jamshed and I exactly knew where he was reading this Hamd.

Actually, the Sheikh is Maulana Akhtar and the venue is the Khanqah in Masjid Ashraf, in Karachi. This is where I started my Tajweed and Hifd class...some 18 years ago...I used to sit in the Khanqah, after salaat (especially after Jummah) and many poets will come and recite naat & hamd......Subhan'Allah you brought back memories...whenever I go to Karachi, I usually go and say my salaam to maulana sahib...He still remembers me!

May Allah Bless all our Sheiks, Ulemas and Imams...and grant them Mercy and maghfirah in this life and hereafter...Ameen

JazakumAllah Khairan sister...for showing me the link.


on February 24, 2006 6:03 PM
amatullah said

Jazakillah sister Nadia for the poem...

In the words of Zain Bhika (the nasheed artist):

" A perfect path he laid for everyone
He lived and dies for us
what have I done?
I have forsaken his life,
I have abandoned his way!
Oh Allah, now my time has come!

Deep in my heart I feel a change has begun
Deep in my soul I feel the warmth of the sun
Burning bright with Imaan
on the road to Ihsaan...
all my obstacles I will overcome!"

May Allah always keep us on the path of the Qur'aan and Sunnah, ameen

on February 25, 2006 5:58 AM
amatullah said


'He lived and DIED for us'

on February 25, 2006 10:46 AM
amatullah said


'He lived and DIED for us'

on February 25, 2006 10:46 AM
asef said


I took the liberty of taking a shot in translating the Nasheed by Junaid Jamshed "Ilahi Teray chaukath par bekhari ban kay aaya hoo":

Oh Lord, I have come as a beggar at your door - I am immensely broke, sincere guilt is what I have brought

I am such a beggar who has neither pockets nor any bowl - I am such a beggar who is killed by his lust & wealth

All provisions for wisdom and good wasted through following my Nafs - The treasure of my Heart's Tranquility lost on my lust

After blowing all my savings in the quicksand of ignorance & mistakes - I am here to seek support at the edge of your Kaaba

Enwrapped in sin, sad is the universe of my heart - Shaken intentions, defeated will, and dead courage

Where can I get strength to relate the affairs of my heart - That in what turmoil has passed the times of my life

In summary, after burned and roasted in my humiliation - I am completely broke with the destruction of my condition

Now I bring to your court my request and my condition - While bringing no act which is worthy of your door

This is your house, your courtyard of gifts my Lord - Complete Light is this, a culmination of Noor my Lord

I am empty and unaware with the etiquettes of your court - I am such a requestor who knows not how to ask

My tongue has drowned in remorse, unable to relate my heart - Oh God have Mercy in the inability of my language to relate

Oh Lord, I have come as a beggar at your door - I am immensely broke, sincere guilt is what I have brought

I hope this helps...and May Allah accept and bring good in everything that we do...Ameen


on February 25, 2006 11:37 AM
amatullah said

JazakAllah for the translation

on February 25, 2006 2:15 PM
Traveller said

as salaamu 'alaykum,

br asef, is it okay if I post the translation of the particular naat on a blog? [credit will be given where credit is due, of course].

on February 25, 2006 2:40 PM
Justoju said

Br. Asef, I was in the middle of translating that naat myself :)...mashaAllah, job well done...

on February 25, 2006 3:17 PM
asef said


Br. Traveller, yes you most certainly can post it anywhere...BUT, you MUST not mention my name...claim it as yours, or someone's else or anonymous...but not mine.

Jazakum Allah Khairan!


on February 25, 2006 3:24 PM
Writing Contest said

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on February 25, 2006 3:37 PM
reader said

"claim it as yours, or someone's else or anonymous...but not mine."

...akhi, claiming something to be someone elses is lying is it not?...

anonymity is one thing, deception is another.

May Allah Aza Wa Jal reward your good intention, but please realize the difference

on February 25, 2006 7:17 PM
asef said


"...akhi, claiming something to be someone elses is lying is it not?...

anonymity is one thing, deception is another.

May Allah Aza Wa Jal reward your good intention, but please realize the difference"

Alrighty then...post it under "writer#34 on Hidayaonline". This way more people can check this website out, and potentially become contributor and writer on this awesome website, insha'Allah.


on February 26, 2006 12:04 AM
mogamad ajouhaar said

found these words accidentally. just want to say thanks. i need them.

ps. may allah grant you all that is good, insha allah ameen

on March 20, 2007 4:17 PM
IMSH said

subhanAllah...just read this poem now...brought tears to my eyes only because i realize how much we all have neglected our beloved Prophet (saws)...Islam gets abused left and right and we sit in our comfortable homes, seemingly content with it...MashaAllah some of you are blessed with the gift of writing so please do something...you don't have to counteract anything...just write something in favor of Islam or even explaining Islam or the Prophet (saws)...
it also made me remember Madinah...it's been 2.5 yrs since I made Umrah and I long to go back every day...Madinah was just so peaceful and serene..SubhanAllah..
Verily Allah and His Angels send blessings on the Nabi (saws). O You Who Believe! Send Salawat and Blessings on Him!
Allahumma Salli Wa Sallim 'Alaih Wa 'Ala Aalihi Wa Baarik Wa Sallim

on March 20, 2007 5:08 PM
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